Thank you for your words of encouragement!. I am trying to stay positive, but this something new for me. By the way I am an above the knee amputee. The out patient therapist has given me some exercises to do, so away we go. took so long to get my prosthesis because I had no insurance so I had to wait for the state insurance to kick in. Unfortunately or fortunately my insurance has changed and i will be going to a whole different company. So I'll be starting at the beginning of this frustrating process, hopefully this time it will go alot smoother.
Again Thank you, for your time and kind words!
I became a left below knee amputee on 8/25/10 due to a car hitting my husband and I when we were riding his Harley. By the way my husband is also a left below knee amputee. I hear your frustration and I remember feeling that way too. I don't know how you lost your leg, whether you are a below knee or above knee amputee, or what caused the amputation but I can tell you what I know worked for me.
I am a physical therapist so I had a head start in terms of knowing what to expect and what I needed to do to get better. I did not go to a rehab center but I did demand out patient physical therapy. They can give you exercises to do that will help in walking. Walking as exercise is not enough. You have to strengthen your hip muscles in particular because the demand on them will be different with a prosthesis. They can also give you encouragement and emotional support for what you are going through and everyone needs that. It is a huge life change and it can feel really lonely. I was fortunate because my husband was going through the same thing at the same time but, even so, we experienced it differently and it helped me to have someone else to discuss my feelings with.
I received my first prosthesis in November of 2010 so I wonder why you had to wait 10 months for yours. The first day after I got my new "leg" I was in tears. It was nothing like my other leg, not even close, and I couldn't see how I could live and work with this thing on my leg. For the next 2-3 months my leg started to shrink and I kept adding more and more socks until I was at 30 ply altogether. I was pretty disgusted during this whole time with this process and again couldn't envision this as the rest of my life. However, I had been doing a lot of research and discovering different options for sockets and suspension systems and I talked a lot with my prosthetist to find out what he could and couldn't do and what would work for me specifically. I also did what you are doing - going on forums and reading what other people had experienced. It is good that you are asking why your experience is different from other peoples experience. That is the beginning of advocating for yourself. I now have a prosthesis that is really good for me with a foot that is energy storing and together they make the leg feel lighter and much easier to walk with. Sometimes, like in my case, the first foot you get is very basic and the next foot is sooooo much better you won't believe the difference. It took me about 8 months to be walking the way I wanted and I still work on it to get it as "normal" as possible. Some of that is professional pride (how can I ask my patients to do something I'm not willing to do) and some of it is just me. My husband doesn't care half as much as I do about walking well.
So what i am trying to say is that it will get better but you get out of it what you put into it. That means consistent exercise and practice walking and searching out what will work for you. Unfortunately no one can give you what you need unless you know what that is and tell them. If you are tired of the walker try to use a cane or crutches or one crutch for short distances in your house. And get to therapy so you at least know what muscles you need to strengthen and how to do it. Don't settle for where you are because you can do as well as everyone else who is on this forum and I know you will. I know you will because I can tell you want to and that is the beginning.
My husband and I each, separately, went to a psychologist to talk out our grief, fear, etc. I only went once and that was enough for me. My husband felt a lot of guilt and had post traumatic stress to deal with (he saw my injuries at the accident scene) so he went for 2-3 months. Please ask for what you need and don't stop asking until you get it. It is no small thing to lose a leg and there is a lot to deal with both physically and emotionally. I am a person of faith and so I hope it won't offend you to say I will be praying for you.