the 10th of august was a bad day for me when a prat on a motor bike t-boned me (also on motor bike - i race em or did race em i should say). He hit my ankle at high speed and left me with massive 'de-gloving' of the foot and leg and an enakle that lloked more like a butchers left overs.
After i was re-built and had various lumps cut from parts of my body and added to my ankle i know have a foot that looks like it has a beef staek strapped to it a foot that doesnt look like a foot and an ankle that looks like it belongs to a 80year with water retention problems!!!!
After all this is pain that made me want to top myself i now find out that its as good as usless any way!!! after three days intense and gut renching pain i found a new friend - his name was 'Morphine' and wonder job that did..... still had pain but it was never as bad. i alsmost break down when i think whjat it was like.
anyway...... looks like i have to make the decision to become a RBK as my consultant wont make it for me. He knows its fro the best, i know its for the best but i still cant get my head round it.
At the moment i am taking Tramadol & diclafenic for the pain and i still only manage about 5 - 10 on my feet befor the pain becomes unbearable and i have to revert to my crutches. I'll never run again, to be honest i'll never do much again.
Having the amp will give me a new lease of life - i know this yet i am s..tting my pants abot what it will be like once i have it done.
It has turned my life upside down and i havent even had it done yet!!
Im in chigwell Essex and will be using the Harold wood limb centre.
anyhow.... thats me..... hello to you all........
p.s looks like d-day will be late january 04 - until then im shoes less as i cant fit one on my new foot!!! chilly toes!